I've heard this song on the radio a lot lately, and thought I'd share it here. I really stopped and listened to the words a few days ago and was just blown away. Hope you find some encouragement in it like I have.
Feb 22, 2009
Feb 11, 2009
Change it is a comin'
In a little over a month, my life is going to change dramatically. I will be moving several states away to begin my life with my wonderful partner, M. I am both extremely excited and scared out of my mind. I know that this is only the beginning for us, and that we have a lifetime of adventures to look forward to. Leaving behind what is comfortable and familiar is pretty scary though. Change, good or bad, is always a bit scary for me - and for most of us I think.
My location and marital status are not the only things changing at the moment. I'm beginning to sense a shift in my thinking and feeling towards a certain troubled relationship in my life. For months, I've been carrying around all of this bitterness and anger and hurt not really knowing how to put it down (or really wanting to for that matter). But God has a sense of humor. You did know that right? I was at a women's conference this past weekend at my church and heard a very good analogy that I want to share. This woman was sharing part of her journey with the rest of us and started talking about bitterness and anger she felt towards someone who had hurt her deeply. God used a pooper scooper (the big kind used to muck out horse stalls) and horse poo to teach her a valuable lesson. She told us that bitterness and anger tend to pile up in our hearts and souls like poo does in a barn. If it's not scooped out on a regular basis...well you get my drift. She told us that we have to work on scooping the poo out of our hearts and minds one scoop at a time. As we scoop, we lay it at the foot of the cross. What a concept. I didn't have to hold on to all of this anger and hurt and bitterness in order to be validated. (You see I think I had this weird notion that if I let go of it, that it would mean that the hurt didn't happen.) God wants to clean out the ugly, smelly parts of my heart. He wants me to trust him enough to hand over the messes of my life and leave them in his hands. Why is it that I fight that? Why is it that I doubt that God's grace is sufficient for me and that his power is made perfect in my weakness? (2 Cor. 12:9)
I'm choosing to begin to trust God with the broken places in my life. Sometimes on a minute by minute basis, won't you join me? Are there places in your heart and life that you're afraid to trust God with? I'm learning that we have a God that loves us beyond our wildest imaginations and is most definitely trustworthy! Trusting for me is not easy...but it's definitely worth the risk.
My location and marital status are not the only things changing at the moment. I'm beginning to sense a shift in my thinking and feeling towards a certain troubled relationship in my life. For months, I've been carrying around all of this bitterness and anger and hurt not really knowing how to put it down (or really wanting to for that matter). But God has a sense of humor. You did know that right? I was at a women's conference this past weekend at my church and heard a very good analogy that I want to share. This woman was sharing part of her journey with the rest of us and started talking about bitterness and anger she felt towards someone who had hurt her deeply. God used a pooper scooper (the big kind used to muck out horse stalls) and horse poo to teach her a valuable lesson. She told us that bitterness and anger tend to pile up in our hearts and souls like poo does in a barn. If it's not scooped out on a regular basis...well you get my drift. She told us that we have to work on scooping the poo out of our hearts and minds one scoop at a time. As we scoop, we lay it at the foot of the cross. What a concept. I didn't have to hold on to all of this anger and hurt and bitterness in order to be validated. (You see I think I had this weird notion that if I let go of it, that it would mean that the hurt didn't happen.) God wants to clean out the ugly, smelly parts of my heart. He wants me to trust him enough to hand over the messes of my life and leave them in his hands. Why is it that I fight that? Why is it that I doubt that God's grace is sufficient for me and that his power is made perfect in my weakness? (2 Cor. 12:9)
I'm choosing to begin to trust God with the broken places in my life. Sometimes on a minute by minute basis, won't you join me? Are there places in your heart and life that you're afraid to trust God with? I'm learning that we have a God that loves us beyond our wildest imaginations and is most definitely trustworthy! Trusting for me is not easy...but it's definitely worth the risk.
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